Everyone’s Lying - Your 20’s Actually Suck [VIDEO]

Daddy gang, welcome back to another episode of Call Her. Daddy. It is your founding father, get it again. For another episode, we're back. It's a Sunday session.

If you are new here, a Sunday session means it's just you and me, okay? No fatherless behavior here, because papa's home, okay? I'm so happy to be doing this episode today because I've been talking to myself for what feels like a whole fucking month. Matt is out of town, okay? And Matt has been traveling because he's in the middle of making three movies at the same time, like a psychopath.

Every time he calls me, I'm like, where the fuck, sorry, where are you again? He's like, Serbia. I'm like, oh, okay, I'm not even really sure where that is on a map.

God bless. And he's also been in London, and he's making another movie in South Africa. So it's like, he's really just, he's been an absent fiance, and so I've been home by myself. And I do wanna say this and just get this off my chest. I do miss Matt, pause, okay?

And just save that for another minute. I don't miss Matt in a couple areas. Specifically in the bedroom, but not in the way that you think. Of course I miss having great sex, and him going down on me, and just all the good things. Someone to insert inside of me and give me an orgasm.

I'm always gonna miss your presence, okay? I'm marrying the man. Of course he's got a good dick. But this is what I don't miss. And something I was thinking about earlier today, I was sipping my coffee.

Why does the person that snores?

also fall asleep the fastest?

Riddle me that. Why? Why does a man, specific, I don't know, home, girl, if you snore, love you, but this is gonna be gendered, okay? I do feel like men snore more than women, but I don't know. And I'm just going based off of that, just based off of, I feel like the two men that I know in my life, my dad and Matt, okay?

And so, Matt, I'm like, why do the people that snore also fall asleep faster? It is infuriating, it is rude, and it's just not the vibe. Okay, I will say, Matt doesn't actually really snore every single night, but he does snore. if, number one, he is so exhausted to the point where he hasn't slept in days because there's been so much work going on, which is a lot, and number two, it's if he's had a couple drinks. And you know what?

Life's been tough lately, okay? So we're hitting the bottle as a couple together quite frequently, but I don't snore when I get fucked up, okay? I sleep there like a little baby fucking angel, and Maddie over in the corner is just fucking snarling it up. Rah, rah! It's truly insanity.

And so why I don't miss Matt is because I don't have to suffocate him by pillow every, we have this understanding, I was talking to my friend about this earlier, because she was like, oh my God, my boyfriend snores too, and I'm like, what do you do? And she's like, I tap him and be like, can you please stop? I'm like, oh my God. Oh my God, I'm like the worst. I'm literally like, oh Matt, you want to snore?

Welcome to fucking war, motherfucker. I take the pillow and I smash him in the fucking head, and he wakes up, he's like, ah, ah, ah, and I'm like, you're snoring. It's 3 a.m. and I can't sleep because you're snoring. And he's like, oh, sorry.

And the worst is they just roll back over and they go right back to bed. It's like they're not even awake. I can fucking crush this man's head. I can make him stop breathing with a pillow. I can literally suffocate Matt.

I have put my hands on this man's nostrils and clamped them and held them, and he just keeps mouth breathing. I'm like, you got to end it. You got to end it and you got to stop. I guess that's my ick, when Matt wears these specific pants when he's golfing, and then also when Matt snores. And thank God he doesn't snore every night.

Like. I do want to clear his name a little bit. It's literally just like a couple of whiskeys and boom. So it's like, okay, great. You maybe stop after one.

I'm going to have 12.

. I'll drink for the both of us so that I can also get a sound fucking sleep at night. So anyways, I'm very, very, very happy. That's the only thing that I, I guess, yeah, that is kind of the only thing that I enjoy when Matt is gone would be that he is not snoring in my ear every night, but I kind of would take, I don't know. I do love him.

So I'm like, ugh. And I will also say,

I'm not a lover.

You know, I'm a fighter in the bedroom. And again, not sexually. I can cuddle. I can cuddle right, right up, right up until the brink of me being like, no, no, now I'm actually going to try to fall asleep. So get the fuck off me.

Like, I understand more when people have different fucking bedrooms as couples than when people fucking cuddle to go to bed. I am such a specific sleeper, daddy gang. Like the concept to me of a man having his arm around me and me trying to fall asleep. I would easier fall asleep on a New York fucking subway than to lay my body down and have Matt's limb touching me. I guess I can have feet action, but even still then, too hot, too hot.

Like I am a warrior in the sheets. I'm a freak in the sheets and then I'm a warrior in the fucking sheets. I cannot be touched. When I'm trying to sleep, there's a clear, defined line that I cannot, I cannot have his body on me because I get too hot. I also cramp.

Like for some reason, the minute it's time to go to bed, like I can't get comfortable. Cause Matt's so affectionate. He's. so, what's the fucking love language? Oh, physical touch.

He's so physical touch. He's like, oh, my God, he always wants to touch. Love it, love it. So endearing during the hours between noon to eight. And then in the morning and at night, I really need that personal space, unless we're actually having sex.

Or again, like, yeah, while we're watching a movie, no, actually, no. Cause then my neck will cramp. He's always like, come, put your head on my chest. I want to be like, you. put your head on my chest, motherfucker.

What woman has ever? actually, I'm like, I have to get neck surgery. I have a full fucking herniated disc, motherfucker. When I used to suffer with boys that I didn't like, that, I was trying to impress and putting my head on their chest at night. And it was like, oh, come here.

Let's watch the movie like this. I really want to turn to any man moving forward and be like, do you actually think for a second that she is actually enjoying watching that movie with her neck craned to a 90 degree angle and her body the opposite direction and the fucking television in the wrong direction? Like, it doesn't make sense. Why would, I want to be comfortable while I'm watching a movie. I want to be laid up.

I'll hold hands. I'll cross legs. You know what I mean? But it's like, I tempt a man, put your fucking head on my chest, motherfucker. And tell me if you could watch the movie.

No, but then they'll just get horny cause their head's on your fucking tit. Like, it's not the same. Okay. So I have been spread Eagle. I have been star fishing it every fucking night.

I am just laid up in the dead center of the bed and I am fucking, I'm thriving. Although I do miss, I do miss him because there is something like really nice, but I'm just trying to find the fucking silver lining. He's been gone for so fucking long. I'm like, oh, I'm single and I live in this house and I have two dogs. I'm a dog woman and I'm by myself and whatever.

So Matt and I have been apart for some, a lot of weeks, it feels like. And I do miss him. And I am, you know, I was having that thing the other day where I'm like, oh my God, like, you know how some periods are so fucking God awful that you're like, the thought of having sex right now, like I couldn't, like, it's hard for me to even put a tampon in. I'm just like, there's just so much going on and I'm hormonal and I'm bleeding. And it's like a fucking, it is just the trenches down there.

So, like, I don't wanna have sex. But then, ladies, don't you agree? Then there are some periods where those hormones are like, babe, we gotta get fucked. Like, I do have those periods where I'm like hornier than others. And I had one of those recently and I just had my wand, little friend, and not Matt's dick.

So that, I was missing him then. But I will say I've been binging so much television and I promise I will not talk about this for long. I only have really one sentence. Every single fucking person and their mother has been talking about the Real Housewives of Utah, okay? And I have a very controversial take that I don't know if people are gonna really not like this take, but I just have to be honest.

So I recently went on a company retreat. How exciting, you guys. Ever since Matt and I launched our company, it's just been so fun to see it grow this quickly, and I love everyone that works at the company. And so when we got back from New Year's, we took our company on a two-day retreat. I was about to say to upstate California.

There is no upstate California. Am I from the East Coast in New York, or what? I'm like, upstate California. They're like, San Francisco, babe. So we took them upstate and we had this amazing retreat and everyone was bonding and we were drinking and we were working and we were doing workshops, and everyone was, it's just great.

But so many of our employees were talking about the Real Housewives of Utah and how they were like, I wanna drink, but I also wanna get in bed so I can go watch the new finale, and I'm like, oh, I like reality. I like reality TV and I wouldn't say I'm the most avid Real Housewives lady. I'm more of like a love island, love is blind, kinda gal, but I'll take it if it's good. I used to watch OG days of New York, Bethany, Luann, Dorinda. I loved those women, but I haven't watched in a while.

And so I'm like, you know what, I'm gonna watch it. And this other woman that works for me was telling me is amazing. So I sit down the other night and this is why, again, I am happy, I'm trying to find the positives of why Matt's gone, because I'm actually really fucking depressed, okay? If you can't tell, people are literally commenting and you're like, oh my God, they're not even married and she wants to get a divorce, she's happier than ever being single. No, I'm trying to find the fucking silver lining.

So don't even start with the bullshit, okay? I love my husband, oh my God. I said that last, you guys, I called Matt, my husband, in another episode and everyone is convinced online that we're married, I am not married. I just keep accidentally calling him my husband because I'm flirting with the name, okay? It's gonna be crazy.

when I'm like, oh, that's my husband. I love it more than fiance. Fiance honestly makes me cringe. It feels like a try hard. somehow.

Like this is my fiance, like I. sometimes, I get so embarrassed to say the word fiance that sometimes I call Matt my boyfriend still. But now, because we're getting closer to the date of me getting married, I'm like, that's my husband. And everyone's like, Alex, you fucking liar, you're married? No, I'm not, I'm just a fucking cunt that can't remember like, okay, he is my fiance, but the word fiance makes me cringe, I wanna vomit.

I don't know why, why is that? Okay, moving on. So I'm happy because I can watch reality television and Matt is not going to be like, turn it the fuck off, it's 3 a.m. I get to binge till my eyeballs burn and until I'm ready to go to bed, okay?

So I turn on Real Housewives and I don't even watch the season, because everyone tells me you can just watch even the finale and it's that fucking crazy. Like the finale, you don't even need that much context. It's just that crazy. This episode is bonkers. And I say, okay, I'm gonna take a little edible and I'm gonna watch this episode.

When I tell you I have never enjoyed something less in the reality television scope, that's actually not true, that's being so fucking dramatic, but let me be dramatic, okay? I didn't enjoy it. I don't know if it was because I was high, but I really don't think. If anything, it should have helped that I was high because it was calming it down. All these people were doing was screaming.

I could not finish the episode. They're screaming the entire episode. These people are screaming to the point where I was like, this isn't enjoyable. I'm getting annoyed. This is obnoxious.

Like I can't even focus on what they're saying because they're yapping and just screaming. It was just screaming for like 15 fucking minutes in a scene that I'm like, oh my God. I'm turning it down to volume like 15, then I'm turning it back up because then I can't hear when one person slightly isn't screaming. Like it was obnoxious. And so I know the content was there, but like, I don't know.

I didn't really enjoy it. I'm really sorry if there's any Housewives fans watching this, like. I am an ally of reality television binging. Like I really am obsessed. I watch everything I feel like, but I couldn't do it.

I don't know. I don't know.

Like I'm feeling like I really miss Matt. I love how I just started this whole episode, being like, woo, Mattie's gone. Now I'm like, I really miss Matt. I do, I do. I'm just trying to find the highlights of when he's gone.

But I was sitting there and I'm like, damn, I'm pretty fucking lonely right now. But in the way that it was not all encompassing to my soul. It was more just like a temporary like, oh damn, like. I really miss my person. And it got me thinking about how many fucking nights you guys, and I'm sure I podcast, I did podcast during this time, but I never really, I didn't like openly talk about it, because that, just like, wasn't on brand at the time.

Hi Henry, hi, hi Brucey. My dogs just came in, sorry guys.

I was thinking about how, like, back when I lived in New York alone and also when I was living with roommates, like, I had so many nights of like genuine, overwhelming loneliness that would come over me. And I would never again podcast about it, because, like I was the girl in New York having sex and being crazy and like the party girl, like just the girl that like had the lifestyle that you wanted. And like I was fucking miserable half the time and I was like really struggling for so many different reasons. But I think back to those nights and I think about how that type of loneliness that I had was so different than what I just experienced last night. But I wanted to talk about it because I bet there's so many people listening that are experiencing the one that I was feeling in New York.

Like I feel so truly, truly happy in my relationship right now. And I am so happy that I've gotten to a place where my loneliness is like a quick ping of like, oh, I miss my person. Like I'm missing Matt and like he's in fucking Serbia. And so, like the time difference is so fucking off. And like when he wakes up, I go to bed.

And when I go to bed, he's waking up. Like we have not really been able to talk much. So I'm like, I miss him and we're used to hanging out a lot. But the feeling that I used to have in New York and I kinda wanna talk about this whole concept of like, are your 20s, the worst part of life?

Like literally, I know this sounds like kind of depressing, but just go with me for a minute. Like I hate how much, how many times, when you're in your early fucking 20s and even in your mid 20s towards your late 20s, do people that are older come up to you being like, oh, soak it up, baby. These are the best years of your life. No, they're not. No, they're not.

I completely disagree, because I'm now about to exit my 20s soon. And I'm realizing, no, they're not.

I'm not gonna say they're the worst years of your life, because I don't even think we can equate a time period to that. I just wanna say, it's just not the truth. And I feel like there's annoyingly such a pressure.

of being in your 20s and having the best time of your life. Like, when you think about your 20s, I think it could potentially, or should potentially, be the worst time of your life, because it's like you have no stability. You just got out of potentially college. if you went to college and you have, you don't know who your friends are, or you do know, but you don't live near them, or they are near you, but you're both changing because you're both going in different directions. And one person has a boyfriend or a girlfriend and one person doesn't, like.

everything is unstable. You're not financially stable. Like the beginning of my 20s, like I was basically fucking whoring myself out for a relationship because I was like, I can't afford to live in New York City, but he can, so I'm gonna, like I was making fucking bad decisions because I was desperate, for, I didn't have money. I had a job I fucking hated. I had friends that I loved or friends I couldn't trust, but like the friends that I loved were busy cultivating their own life, that like, it, just, it's fucking awful.

And then, like you're financially unstable, your job, even if you have a baller job, like you're too young, that, like, you, don't even know how to advocate for yourself. So how the fuck would you even know if, like you're at the right point in your life? Like romantically, I feel like in your early 20s, it's like how the fuck can you even have a good relationship when, like no one fucking knows who they are when they're 20.. I'm sorry. Like it is a fucking fact.

You do not actually know who you are or who you wanna be when you're 20, because you've been in such a bubble, protected by whatever system you were in, whether it was college or high school or your parents were helping you out. Like you haven't been an actual real adult, where you're like self-sustaining a life. So you're, it's like you have no fucking idea who you are independent. You've been propped up by all these different things. And so, for an actual romantic relationship, it's like you're going towards something that feels more like a need rather than a want.

Like I need this person or I need to fill this void. And it's like, what do you actually want? And we don't fucking know when we're in our 20s, because you're like, I have, like, should I quit my job? Should I move cross country? Should I live in a suburban area?

Should I go to the city? Should I go to like, what the fuck should I do? Who should I be? What should I wear? What should I look like?

And, on top of it, social media, it's like, oh, every fucking week, the trend is shifting. Oh my God, clean girl aesthetic, we're buying all this. Oh my God, mob waifu aesthetic, you're buying this. It's like, you can't even be fucking unique in who you are, because we're also being over fucking pushed every fucking day, who we should be, what should we wear, what should we, and it's like, whoa. And in your 20s, I feel like, sure, there are outliers, but the majority of people in your 20s, including myself, it's like, you wanna be a part of the fun, cool shit.

So you are getting peer pressured and you don't even know it. sometimes. You're making decisions because you wanna go with your friends. But as you get older, and I'm having this revelation now, it's like, I'm gonna be 30 this summer. This summer?

Yeah, this summer.

And I've never felt more, and I'm sure at 40, I'll say, oh my God, at 30, I thought I had it all figured out. But currently, I look back and I reflect on my 20s and I wanna be really clear. I had such incredible times. I really, really did. But at the same time, I look back and I struggled more than I thrived.

And that's okay. I really think that's normal. But what I just wanted to come and say to you guys is it's okay if you are fucking barely making it through your 20s and you are fucking stressed and you are fucking exhausted. And I just, I think it's, like I said, it's really annoying how older people look at you, like, don't take it for granted. You should be having the best time of your life.

And it's like, what? Is going out to clubs, the best time of your life? Because let me tell you something. I look back and, of course, there are those outlier nights at a club where you actually meet a guy you like and it's like, oh my God, I'm gonna remember this night for the rest of my life, like sparks and craziness and fun and holy fuck, and you're going home with your friends and you all had a baller night. Those are so fucking far and few between.

Majority of times that I was in New York City and I was going out and I was going clubbing,

what is it saying? It's like, I was just going out to feel something, like literally. I would go to clubs and most of those nights would end in me getting home at two or three or four or 5 a.m. and I would make myself food and I would sit at my counter by myself. and I felt so empty and lonely and lost and confused and like, why don't I feel happier?

And it was like the moment I shut my door and I was alone, all of that loneliness crept in. And so, I don't know. I don't wanna be depressing. I just wanna like validate you. Like if you're fucking struggling and I'm not even saying like your 30s shouldn't be.

I just want you all to pause for a minute if you've been feeling a little fucking shit lately.

Like. I hate to say it because I feel like, what? am I gonna say this? Every fucking episode, but it's literally the truth. Like if you are feeling like shit.

about your circumstances lately,

turn off your fucking social media.

Like in the least preachy fucking way, like every fucking time. I was thinking about this the other day. Back in, like the ancient days, you know, I'm 90..

We used to like, I remember I used to watch YouTube and I had like four creators that I really, really liked and that made me really happy. And I would, after school, go on YouTube and I would watch those four creators. One of them being Jenna Marbles. And I felt so, like I genuinely loved their content, and that's why I subscribed. Oh my God, why did I just say subscribe, subscribe?

I subscribed to their content. I would subscribe to their content. And now there's 19 million, thousand, jillion people on the internet that like. we're not curating our pages anymore like we used to, because there's such an influx in the amount of people that we can consume. And so I would say, why are we, every fucking time you open your phone, unless you follow four fucking people and even still then be weary.

But like, if you're on TikTok, maybe the first step is like, go onto, just like your following page. Like, don't go on the for you page, just go on your following page and follow the people that you actually like. that make you feel good about yourself. Okay. And I hope I'm one of those people.

Like, I hope I make you feel good and I hope I make you feel cozy. But if it's not, you know,

guys, don't leave me. But you know what I mean? I just think it's like, and I've said this before, but sometimes it's like, this is larger than just a one-off conversation. It's like, maybe every fucking week, I just need to remind us, because I'm also reminding myself, like I open my fucking phone in the morning and I'll see something and I'll get anxious. Oh my God, I need to do more work.

or, oh my God, I need to post a video because I'm behind and like, oh, I like that thing that she's wearing. Do I have to buy that? I'm like, stop buying shit. You don't have to buy every fucking thing that you see. that someone's like,

calm down. I need us all to turn off our fucking phones or at least turn off our social media, because literally watching this shit is just making us feel like pieces of shit. And I'm telling you, I have been in front of people that take a fucking picture of caviar from a different fucking table and walk over to their table and they thank the people for letting them take a picture of their fucking caviar and they post it on their fucking Instagram story. and I watch the influencer post it and be like, oh my God, that person didn't even eat caviar tonight. It wasn't even at their table.

They didn't even pay for it. They didn't even eat it because it wasn't theirs. Like it is, you don't, you can't fucking trust half of the shit you see on social media. So when you're feeling like, oh, this person has a nicer place than me and a nicer this and that.

Like. maybe you don't even know. half of these people could have fake fucking boyfriends, daddy gang. Okay. So, trust no one.

Don't trust these bitches and just know that your twenties fucking suck. No, you guys, they fucking do. Like. they're the best and they are the fucking worst. And like, I just want to stop glamorizing.

Like you're 20, let me on your 20s. Like, I'm so fucking excited for my thirties and people keep asking me like, oh my God, are you so nervous about your thirties? Like, oh, like 30.. And I'm like, oh my God, I'm so excited. Like, why should I be nervous?

And I'm like, oh, cause I forgot everyone's a fucking asshole. And everyone's like, oh my God, when women turn 30, like you're done. Like, oh, you haven't had kids yet? Like you're done. Like, oh, you're 30..

Like you're so old and irrelevant. We don't do it to men. When a man turns 30, he's wiser, he's smarter, he's hotter. He's, he's daddy. When a woman turns 30, people are like, oh God, she's fucking done.

No, I'm fucking more daddy than ever. I feel better than ever. I'm fucking hotter than ever. I feel more myself. I feel like I know, I know what makes me happy.

And I'm so much better at discerning like things that I want to do and things that make me happy versus things that don't fucking,

that don't make me happy and that don't please me and that don't fulfill me. And like, I'm so much more selfish with my fucking time and my energy and my, the way that I interact with people. Like, I'm just, I feel like a better friend, a better daughter, a better partner. And I also feel like a better fucking boundary setter. Like I just feel fucking better.

So I'm telling you, it gets fucking better. And of course I have awful fucking days where I'm crying in the shower and I'm stressed as fuck. And I'm like, oh my God, I like, can't take this. But when I'm comparing it to my twenties, girl, oh, I wish I could give Alex eating ramen noodles, crying in her apartment a hug and be like, babe, stop feeling like you have to go out every night. Stop going to the club to feel something like journal, watch movies, like read, go to the park, like do shit.

So, you know, I don't know. I don't know if that helped.

What else did I write down this week that I was up to? Oh yeah, this is a life update for me that, like, I don't even know if I want to share, because it's just like really fucking depressing. So, if you know me, I eat like fucking shit and I'm very aware that the internet has a lot of opinions on that. Like, I always get like, oh, like you eat like such fucking shit or whatever. Like people just have opinions on everything, and that's fine, because I talk for a living.

So you should have an opinion and you should think, oh my God, you're such a fucking idiot, or you eat like a piece of shit or whatever. Like, oh, you're so healthy. Your goals, Alex, like, you know, opinions.

I think I have a problem because I have, like, stomach problems recently and what I think I've seen on TikTok, though, like only hot girls have stomach, hot girls have stomach problems. Oh my God, hot and stomach problems. Woo. That's me. I have not been thriving lately in my stomach department and I went to a doctor and he had the audacity to look at me eyes and tell me, Alex, maybe you have a gluten allergy.

That doesn't work for me. That isn't,

like. I called Matt after and he started laughing, which I thought was like divorce material. I'm like, okay, you fucking piece of shit. Why are you laughing in my face? And he's like, can you imagine you, you with a gluten allergy?

Yeah. No, I can't. I like, I'm not, I actually want to be really serious right now. Like, I don't know what I'm going to do. And so I'm having to do a week of not eating gluten and I'm, I don't even know.

Like I, my, I grew up in a household of pasta and mashed potatoes and carbs. Like my family loves carbs. Like not, not like rice, like pasta and potatoes. Like I, chicken, Parmesan and spaghetti and burgers and steak and whipped potatoes and cheese steak. Like, I don't have a good diet and I fucking know that.

And mom, I love you. Thank you for good genetics. But like, holy fuck, I have a bad diet and I fucking love food. I love it. I'm my father's daughter.

Like my dad is a chef and he loves, well, my dad's not like a chef. Like he, but you know, he's a chef at home. You know, my mom was never the one cooking. My dad cooks up bomb ass meals and he loves food. and he loves, and I love it too.

And I, Matt, always laughs. Like Matt's, like, I just like eat to like fuel myself. You like eat cause you love to eat. I love taste. I love seasoning.

I love, I love eating food in a way. that's like, I need a bunch of different flavors, right? Like I need to be able to like, in the middle of dinner, I'll want to open the fridge and like eat a piece of chocolate. Like I need to taste everything, eat everything. But I'm such a fucking gluten bitch.

Like I don't even like, I wish someone told me like I was allergic to fish. I'd be like, oh, that makes it easy. I, nothing changes in my life. Like I'm not, I'm not well suited for the gluten-free life. And I don't, I'm like, I know this sounds dumb, but like, I'm actually, I'm pretending that I'm like joking about this.

Like I'm actually having a mental breakdown. Like I, I would, I think I would rather have a dairy allergy than a gluten allergy. Like I'm, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not cut out for this. Like, I don't know.

Like, I think I would just rather shit my fucking pants and eat gluten than not eat gluten. Like I, I really, oh my God. And I, I don't know. And I'm convincing myself, that I don't have a gluten allergy. Like.

maybe I just had fucking IBS, you know? And like, like, I don't know. I just, this is TMI, but like, I, just, I just am having a little bit of a mental breakdown. Any of my gluten-free girls like reach out, but I just, or maybe I just have stomach problems, you know? Like, and maybe I, just like, I'm always feeling like I need to like vom or like shit.

And it's just like, that is what it is. And like, that's just like, that's just like the life of like, that's just like the life of a hot girl. Like constantly just shitting your pants.

I'm fucking miserable.

So some things that I have coming up that I'm very excited about are, I decided last minute that I'm going to go to London to visit Matt because we've now been apart, for, I think it's been four, going on four weeks. Matt has really, really, really wanted me to come to London. And I was like, Matt, I love you so much. But like, I cannot come to London unless I get a guest in London. Like I have to make it make sense, business-wise.

Like, or I need, cause, like, I need to do this fucking show. And like, I can't just come to London and like, I have my employees here. And like, I can't do that. And he was like, okay, like I get it. Like, try to get a guest.

And then I was sitting here and I was like, okay, why don't I just fucking?

bust my ass for the next week and get myself in a good position and just go to fucking London, even if I don't have a guest. And so I called him today and I was like, I have some news for you. And so I call him and he's exhausted and he's just like, ugh. Like, he's just been like, I'm exhausted. It's 3 a.m.

I miss you. And I was like, okay, well, I have good news.

I booked a flight to London. And he, oh my God, it made me so happy. He, like, like he just was, he was so excited. He's like, what? Like, oh my God.

Like, I had wrapped my head around the fact that you weren't going to come. And like, I understood, but like, oh my God, like shut up, like you're coming. And he was so excited. And I was like, yeah, like I, we need to spend time together. And like, I don't want to go to our fucking wedding and be like, oh, we've been so fucking busy.

And then, like our wedding happens. Like, let's, I want to be intentional. Let's spend time together. And so I'm getting on a flight this week and I'm going to go to London. And again, and then I'll, maybe, I'm going to do an episode from London, because I feel like I'm a whole different bitch in London.

But like, London truly is just so special to Matt and I. And I feel so, I don't know. I feel like it will be fun for us, right? Like coming up to our wedding, to like have time in London together. Cause it truly is really, really where we fell in love.

I'm really just excited to go spend time with him. I'm also excited to like go and be on the movie set. And like the movies that he's shooting are so fucking exciting. And I just, I'm excited to like go and be a part of that. And yeah, so by the time that next week or this upcoming week, I will be on a flight to go to London.

And I'm just, I'm excited. And I have a couple other things coming up that I'm excited, that I'm going to podcast about. But it is so fucking hot in this room. And I think Henry and Bruce are melting like me. So, daddy gang, I hope you guys enjoyed this Sunday session.

I have. so, oh my God. I love how I, just like, went through this whole thing. I was like, just like word vomiting. I have so many wedding updates for you guys that I need to do a whole wedding, wedding, wedding, wedding episode, because, let me just say this, and then I will leave you.

I feel like when I did my first wedding episode, I was kind of like, hmm, like a full fucking disaster. Like I was kind of like, like Debbie Downer. Like, oh my God, like I don't want to do this and I don't want to do this. And like something came over me and I will talk to you guys about the shift that I had. But I am so fucking excited for my wedding.

And I'm in a complete different headspace than I was when I first recorded that episode. And I feel, I have so many different opinions and takes on things. And I'm doing different things that I said, some things I said that I wouldn't do, I'm going to do. And like, I just have all these different thoughts now. And I think that's just life and getting to change your mind is a beautiful thing.

And I don't know, I'm just excited because I have a lot of, lot of updates and a lot of dress updates and just a lot of fucking updates. So I'm going to find time to do a full wedding, wedding episode. I already posted on my Instagram, but I'll just saying it here. DM me any wedding questions for any of my brides, my 2024, 2025 brides, DM me any questions that you have. And obviously I'm just coming from a place of like my opinion.

You don't have to agree with me. You can have a complete different opinion and that's okay. I want to remind everyone on the internet, like it's okay to have a different opinion from someone, but I can do an episode and try to answer as many questions. But yeah, have a lovely Sunday, daddy gang. There's no reason to have Sunday scaries, okay?

This week we'll go by like a breeze, and if it doesn't, it's all right. Then eventually it'll be the weekend and you'll be fine. So I love you guys. Maybe go take an everything shower, like they say on TikTok. And by that, I mean, shave your legs, shave the pus, shave the armpits and shave the stash.

And what else can you shave? Shave your belly button and shave your tits and lotion up and oil up and 15 step skincare routine and go to bed and take a fucking edible and cruise into the freeway and the highway in the distance.

I love you.

Farewell, love you, goodbye.

Oh, my God, I should go watch The Sound of Music. I love that movie. Okay, I love you guys. I will see you fuckers on Wednesday. I'm very, very excited for you guys to see who this guest is.

Holy fucking shit. Talk about drama. Let's go, goodbye.